3 AM

It all started with my sister in laws status on facebook. It said something along the line of "I love how quite my house is after I put everyone to bed and everyone is asleep." I immediately agreed. I immediately felt as if someone knew why it is that sometimes I love to sneak downstairs after everyone in my house is indeed tucked safely into their bed to sit in my recliner to just 'sit' and reflect on my day or to write in my journal, or to do other things such as clean up the house. I was once told that I chose odd hours of the day to do household chores. Perhaps I do. But, I find that the quite hours of the night to be particularly enjoyable, maybe because they are the hours when I am not trying to spend every moment soaking up time spent with my girls, or maybe that is the time when my body finally has enough energy to allow me to work, who knows? Whatever it may be, here it is again, 3 o'clock in the morning, the night before a garage sale is scheduled to begin...after which I have spent 2 days in misery with a terrible migraine headache...I pray that I may be sustained through this ordeal. (Forgive me all of you out there who want pictures...sweet Gracie has taken my camera...but I will find it soon, I promise!!!)

I am ready to cry...

Where to begin?? Life is anything but easy right now. This week my patience has been tried much past what I thought I could handle and although I am still here, I don't feel like I am surviving the stress well. I don't want to go into too many details on here but unfortunately a friendship of mine is ending after a misunderstanding but with that there has come a great amount of stress an anguish on my part. I don't like to cause anyone else pain, but now that I am married and have kids, they have to come first and they are the most important people in my life. I often take things personally, especially interpersonal relationships so this has been VERY difficult on me, but I am hoping when this is all said and done I can move on and put it behind me. I am ready to cry...

On Thursday,as we were getting ready to go to the doctor our car wouldn't start. Okay...so no big deal right? Dead battery? WRONG...we had power to the car, the radio worked, all the dash lights etc worked. I immediately went into full blown panic. Alright, I know...maybe a little premature there, but I did. The reason? Back in April more than $1200 was spent on the car getting it back in working order...I started seeing numbers adding up like the national deficit in my head. Well, luckily we are borrowing a second car from Nate's parents right now and we were able to use that to get to the doctor. I am ready to cry...

After we got home Nate went down stairs and said there was a problem...the air conditioner was leaking. The connection between the condenser and a PVC pipe was completely corroded and eaten away needing to be replaced. So, the air conditioner was turned off. We have a home warranty on our house so we called first thing Friday morning to file a claim and the first thing we found out was that our warranty does not cover air conditioning units. So, we called a few more places to come out. In the meantime, the air conditioning must stay off while it is 95-100 degrees outside and I have migraines from the heat. When the company got here they told us it was going to cost us $6,000 for them to revamp a whole new system. I am ready to cry...

I do have one reason to be very very grateful. My incredible mother in law came down yesterday as well as today and helped me clean and get my house in order. With my health the way it is, it is very difficult for me to work for hours at a time to get my house in tip top shape, and she is an amazing organizer. Plus, I really enjoy spending the time with her. She is very good with my girls and they adore her. It feels so wonderful to sit here this evening knowing that our Big Room, (where our family spends most of our time together) Annie's Room, Gracie's Room,the girls bathroom and the Kitchen are all clean. Next Saturday my mother in law and I are going to be doing a garage sale as well to clear out some of the stuff that we cleaned up here today so I am excited!! That will be the icing on top of the cake for us!.....Now, just to get all these other things resolved and taken care of!! We need our car back!! We actually need a 2nd car TERRIBLY!!......and I CAN NOT live in this house much longer without an air conditioner, so any prayers would be appreciated...sorry for being so blatant and asking, but I am desperate at this point...I am still ready to cry...